The midnight urge to sort life.

After graduating 3 days ago from my dream college on a laptop, I have successfully reached a dilemma- being scared for not having enough money and being a knowledgeable person as a graduate.

This urge of resolving my life has led me to plan the next six months multiple times a day, read more than 4 hours, and delete toxic friends. All good, right?

Sorta. Not really. It’s manageable.

So here’s a summary of my pandemic/ my final year. I started a company with a friend. It was a shitstorm. I’m glad I understood the struggles of a startup at such an early stage in life. Failure is a better teacher than success, I know that now.

After leaving my beloved ‘Baby’ aka company because of unpaid overworking life — 1 yr and a toxic friendship of 2 years. I felt FREE. It’s important to actually realize how overburden our life is with the disregard of others and how to LOSE it.

The key is knowing when you step in shit and understanding that no one will sacrifice their shirt to clean it.

As always, I wasn’t alone while changing my life. I prayed through all this. The Prayer- My lord is aligning me with the right people, divine love, and support.

I read it in the book — The Dynamic Laws of Prosperity (will do another post about it)

This all madness happened after getting COVID, during my final submissions, managing freelance clients, etc. I know SHITSTORM.

SO how do you actually sort Life?

1. Watch something funny — let go of shit, stretch your leg across a bed or table and watch something that makes you laugh hard.
2. VALIDATE YOUR OWN FEELINGS before anyone else- they say you should do what you expect, same goes with feelings. If you want people to be respectful you need to be respectful to yourself first.
3. Have friends who like the real you- I recently used social meeting apps for this. It actually helped. Come up with what works socially and also what makes you feel yourself.

I’m sorry if this makes you think that I have it all together. I am just waiting on a text from a potential crush (it’s too soon).

Grammarly just tried to correct CRUSH to CRASH. 🤦🏻‍♀️ Empathy UX much?

So this is just a cheap memoir for those urges (anxiety attacks) where we don’t know where life is headed.